Monday, July 19, 2010

First Trimester Observations

This is obviously my first pregnancy. No one can prepare you completely for all the changes that begin to happen in your body. You can read all you want, get all the advice that you want. It's totally different when it's YOUR body. I am sure the next 6 months I'll have plenty more to say on this, but here are some things I've observed in the past 3 months.

But, first, go to these blog posts: this woman explains things SO much better- I laughed until in tears!
Crazy Peeing Pregnant Lady
Survival of the Species

Observation #1: Not knowing how to feel when you take the test and find out it's POSITIVE. You never really expect it to be- especially the first one you've taken in your life. I think I faked being excited because that's what I knew I was supposed to be feeling. But really, I was like a deer caught in headlights. Nervous laughter from both of us ensued.
That was closely followed by Observation #2: the sinking feeling that there's "no turning back now". Our lives have changed forever. Deal with it.
Observation #3: The stereotypical reaction to your husband when you're sick/in pain is totally true. Glare, stare with squinted eyes angrily at him, and mutter "you did this to me." This often will result in ice cream runs at 11pm.
Observation #4: Scared enough to pee my pants "I am going to be a terrible mother. What was I thinking? What am I doing?!" in one moment, and then immediately crying as you think about holding that newborn in your arms while sighing, "I can't wait."
Observation #5: That entire blog post about peeing (linked above)? Every. Word. True. My theory: Preparation for all the midnight feedings. It's like the kid is already warning you, "get used to this mom."
Observation #6: I never thought I would fear leaving the house simply because I don't want to puke in public.
Observation #7: Speaking of puking, I also never though it was possible to puke so quickly after eating. Digestion is a thing of the past.
Observation #8: It is hard for me to have a conversation without bringing up the subjects of either peeing or puking. I suppose that won't be too far from the truth for when the baby is here, too.
Observation #9: Due to the aforementioned fear of puking, I now also fear eating.
Observation #10: Food has become my life. Either thinking about food I'm craving, or food I despise, or "I wonder if I can eat now without puking", or thinking about what food I'll eat tomorrow. It is pathetic how often food crosses my mind.
Observation #11: morning sickness is such a stupid name. Way too tame. And it's not just mornings.
Observation #12: I have never used the term "Feeling like a slug" until last week.
Observation #13: I now feel like that pregnant woman that just complains all the time. I'm a wuss.
Observation #14: At least I can take all the sick days I want... that, too, will change soon.
Observation #15: 'Morning sickness' is about 75% mental. I have had to learn habits to 'trick' myself into not getting sick. Sometimes it is very literally a race to the refrigerator to eat or drink something really quickly (even just one bite/sip helps) before my brain catches up to the rest of me and decides I don't feel good. "Deep breath, take a drink, close eyes. Yay, I didn't throw up!"
Observation #16: It's the little victories. Doing laundry, dishes, or making the bed is a huge deal. Leaving the house and coming back without throwing up is like coming home a war hero.

There's more, but I'll stop there for now :)


  1. Charisma,
    You are too funny. I think I'm going to enjoy reading your blog posts. So many of your observations brought back many memories. Number 15 especially. I remember feeling so sick but if something popped into my head that sounded good I just HAD to go eat that food. And sometimes just a bite would make me feel better as long as I could get it down.
    Hopefully the sickness will pass soon for ya and then you get into the fun part. I loved my 2nd trimester!
    Take care,

  2. I totally agree with the little victories Charisma! I am so glad that you understand that a little bit here and a little bit there can be victorious. It took me (and Jesse) a LONG time to realize that. I mention Jesse because he had to learn to be understanding. I cannot get all the housework done in one day. I just can't! Jesse understands and is happy that I try.